Folly or silly as it seems, I am a huge block of a random person. I think about really impossible things. I am also a dreamer, I have the most gigantic imaginations of this world on my mind. I love funny stuff and I do the stomping of the happy feet. Along with my siblings, cousins and friends, we always make it to the point that whenever there is a serious prototype happening, we come up with rather the most ridiculous idea ever. Think about it. Who else wants to be affected in a grave manner? When there is actually an alternative way to solve a problem in a more delighted way? Being happy really cures, it heals blues and fools. It is like a medicine readily available ever. Take it from my experience.
There was a time when I almost felt like crying because I once failed a test. The examination was so difficult that every student was to lose hope if they could still pass on the subject. I came home sad and without a happy curve on my face. I was so depressed, for I feared that it would result in a low grade at the end of the semester. But then I thought, what else I can do with it? It happened and I couldn't anymore bring back the whole like it didn't really happen at all.
So I decided to talk and mingle with the wonderful people and have a jest around. I made up my mind I wouldn't anymore think about it that much. I got up from the depression and started to gather hope that it wouldn't much affect my grade. And what was the result? I became happier and was filled with optimism that I will get through with it. Plus, it gave me the positive energy to study even harder when the next exam comes.
I received my grade. To what surprised me, it didn't get that low just from what I had expected it would be like. It taught me a lesson: No one can really bring back or change the happenings that had gone by, but sure it is you can manage to change whatever is happening in the present by just choosing to act, not to react.
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A few days ago, I was bothered with mine flaws and vulnerabilities. Knowing that I am an active member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, I was like shot that got through my head the shortcomings and neglectfulness I have grown into over the years. Yes it's true that I share not the borrowed but my personal testimony to others, I work with the missionaries and I magnify my callings in the church. Yet there are things that I am aware of, which are primarily should be given the full attention first. Bigger problems start with the little ones. Once the small beginnings turn into even bigger problems, it will become habitual and would possibly be harder to change if not given the right treatment as soon as possible.One night when I was lying on my bed going to sleep, I came up evaluating myself. I reflected on the things that I am doing everyday. I thought, if those things, were really enough for me to say I have developed a perfect obedience pertaining to the application of what I have been learning throughout my life. Sadly, the answer was no.
It is true that we won't really achieve true happiness if we only stick to just the two or three of the good principles and disregard the others. Developing yourself comes into a step-by-step process, and wouldn't be achieved in just an instant preparation. Failure inevitably comes through our everyday experiences thus teaches us to accept frustrations and once again try for the best. We may sometimes see challenges in life as stumbling blocks that keep on dragging us down, yet we should also keep in mind the teachings of the leaders that if we give our strongest hold to the rod, we will not falter. For those too are tests given, for our personal development and to acquire more faith and obedience to the commandments of the Lord and to help us attain greater spiritual growth and maturity.
So the next day I made my mind that I will start making a change-- I will always take time reading the scriptures and wouldn't miss a day not praying especially when I wake up in the morning; I will start doing my best in obeying all the things my parents would require me to do and I will make myself more available in serving others. Also, I promise to be more patient. Well, I just have to keep this in mind: If I really wanted to be a nurse, I will be more patient. Because nurses, are really "patient" people. ;)
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Oh I'm craving today. What have you done to me creamy one? I think it's already time for you to know how it becomes so difficult for me to forget about when I couldn't actually stop myself wanting for more every time I eat you. I tried all the flavors and all of it were amazing. My taste buds keep on asking for more~
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Yesterday I saw a group of dogs walking on the street. They were of different colors and faces. There were blacks and whites and browns. Some of them were fat, some were thin. Like a band marching, I was amazed of how they looked like together and thought maybe they were really friends at all. The moment when I was just staring blankly at them, I remembered our former dog named Fatchie, who is now living in the province at my uncle's house.
I miss the days when she was still a puppy and I played with her. I miss the times when she would excitedly jump on my feet and I will be holding her onto my arms when I come home. Truly worth longing was the moment when I captured pictures of her, I even took a shot when she was still a newborn and made it my profile picture on Facebook.
The last week of October we came to visit Pangasinan and saw her again. She had a fine fur and a good looking face enough for a well-cared dog. How surprising it was when she still remembered everyone of us and felt like she was again our own Fatchie, just like before. Oh how I miss her so much, our first dog pet ever.
As time passes by, life also gives us experiences that go past and make turns in our lives. There are things that stay put in the corner and never change, and there are also matters that unpredictably come off our way whether we want it or not. They say photographs and papers may fade away, but the memories will always linger and brace as a remarkable treasure in our hearts as years go by. We can never rewind what happened from the past but we can always look forward in that tomorrow where the more wonderful things await us. Life is beautifully created by God. We should just learn how to appreciate and acknowledge even of those in their simplest form, because unknowingly, sometimes those that aren't given the real importance, really are some of the things that matter the most in life.
The last week of October we came to visit Pangasinan and saw her again. She had a fine fur and a good looking face enough for a well-cared dog. How surprising it was when she still remembered everyone of us and felt like she was again our own Fatchie, just like before. Oh how I miss her so much, our first dog pet ever.
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| Fatchie before, Potchina today. |
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